Happy New Year

Wow what a year this has been, but I have to say that I am very blessed indeed! If not for all the love that I have in my life from family and friends I would not be here writing to you all.

After having been diagnosed last December with a faulty aortic valve and an aortic root aneurysm February's open heart surgery went by in a blink of an eye. It's mid boggling to think of all the out pouring of love from so many friends to help me heal back to living a active life.

After a weeks stay at the hospital I celebrated being alive with a birthday gathering on March 4th. I vaguely remember it through the fog of anesthesia and pain medication but I do remember being overwhelmed with love.

Only a few weeks after that we had to put our beloved yellow Labrador, Cody, to sleep. He had a full life but his aging body was giving out and John's baby left for the dog park in the sky. That same month our little angel Athena was diagnosed with malignant melanoma cancer. She had to have one of her toes amputated. We were lucky to have her back at home after losing Cody.

I was lucky enough to have my dear friend David Browning invite me to hawaii to recouperate. It was a blessing to be on a beach and in the ocean surrounded by natures healing powers and Life progressed as I recovered from open heart surgery and got back to work doing massage.

In May I went to Palm springs to stay with, a now former friend, who decided that we couldn't remain friends. It was his choice and I was fine with that. I don't want to be a burden to anyone or be in the way of anyones progress in life. But I was fortunate enough that the Universe was working in it's mysterious ways and my best friend Kent was house sitting that same weekend. We decided to go look at houses. Kent was looking at the possibility of buying in Palm Springs. The housing market was crashing and the prices were amazing.

Where I returned to San Francisco I told John about the housing opportunties and we decided to go down to Palm Springs to look at what our options were. We started bidding on that first outing. And after the second trip the beginning of July we found the house that would prove to be a gathering point this Holiday season and will be for many more celebrations to come.

This summer was a great opening to forge some lasting friendships. I met some wonderful new clients that fast became friends. I have gotten to know Brett Conway, a very talented ballet dancer with Alonzo King's Ballet here in San Francisco. Joe Pacetti from Dallas who is an amazing and generous man with a heart of Gold.

Another opening that has happened this year was sharing the reading of Eckhart Tolle's "A New Earth". This book has made an amazing impact on so many people including John as well as a dear man Ross Hurston and a slew of other friends. If you haven't read this book I recommend it to everyone along with the web class on Oprah.com. The classes are a MUST to more fully enhance the books message!

I went to London in July and August with my friend David Browning. He is so generous this man is. I love him dearly and I want everyone to know how special a friend he has been. That trip was amazing. I met a new friend Andy Gawthorpe and had the chance to see my dear friend James Wilcox. A true gentle-man! He is so peaceful to be around. I have to thank Gloria and Richard again for letting David and I stay at their flat while in London.

The end of August was a busy time Mom turned 73 and John's brother mark got marriend in Denver. Lots of amazing times and memories that will last forever.
Once I returned I was off again to New York to the Hamptons but that trip was brought to a quick halt when our "Little Princess" Athena became extremely ill as her cancer began to ravish her little furry body and we had to put her to sleep. It was such a heart wrenching experience to let her go but the episodes that led up to that point were so profound that it was uplifiting as it was difficult. When spirit talks we have to listen and the messages were LOUD AND CLEAR. You can relive this experience by reading the August post in this blog. And I have to once again refer you to read this excerpt from "Conversations with Jerry...." It is truely an amazing read! Email me if you want to read the book and I'll email youa the pdf file.

Over the labor day weekend it was an emotional filled weekend. Having just put Athena down and a new household was being set up in Palm Springs and the sad event that John and I had decided to set in motion that he and I would end our relationship as it was. We tried out best over the past few years to make out relationship mesh as life partners as traditionally described, but we just were not happy with ourselves in that "traditional" sense. We have decided to stay together as roommates and best friends but our "Partners/lover/ boyfriends" has evolved into something that we both are able to live happily with. Many of you may not understand how we can continue to live together and often times sleep in the same bed, but it's not important that you fully understand it. All we ask is that you accept it and be supportive and happy that we still want to play an important part within each others lives. True friendship will endure. And this is what I have with John. I love him and his family and will forever be filled with them in my heart and soul!

John and I were planning a trip to Italy in October but I had to have the 7th and final ankle surgery to repair a broken ankle that happend 7 year prior on my and John's first summer vacation together on Fire Island NY. I had another bone graph and sub-talor fusion on October 10th and It seems to have worked so far. The pain is definitely better but still on the mend. John was home for the operation and I urged him to take the trip to Italy to share with his friends.

My friends Kathy Clayton, Gigi, Mark Haberman, Angie Placado as well as my sister and Joe Pacetti helped take care of me. I had a tough time keeping still but I wasn't about to mess up this last chance to heal from ankle surgery. I did manage to make a trip to Las Vegas with Kent and David Browning to see Madonna in concert and to visit with my friends Steven and Rick from NYC, who are touring with Madonna, and an impromptu reunion with my long time friend Quinton Jenkins from Tuscon. I had a lot of heling on a whole lot of levels this past fall.

The end of first week of December I went to Palm Springs to take a week and had another reunion with so many of my showboy dancer friends and just good friends with lots of water under the bridge. Kevin Smith, Kent Blackford, David Oliphant, Chris Childers, Paul Thorpe, Robby Loose, Brett Conway, and a slough of new friends gathered for a fun filled week of laughter and dancing and prancing and sharing of memories long past. It renergized me and again made me realize how blessed I am and how lucky it was that John and I found the house in Palm Springs to help make more memories!

Okay so now The year is about to close but the new Year looks brighter than ever.

I want to thank all of you for making my life so full and wonderful. I may not always stay in touch but I love the fact that we can pick up where we left off and the love continues to grow.

In the meantime I'm finally getting my "Spiritual Bodybuilding" video finished and hope to have it out on YouTube by late winter. I'll keep you posted.

I thank God for you and I thank the Universal love that binds us all as one. You ARE my family and I love you and with you all the prosperity and happiness that is inherant in all of us!

XOXO Love and Light Always, Jesse

Everything is Rosey

Hi tlo all of my loving and accepting friends and family,

Sorry for the delay in this post. All turned out well with my the levels of coumadin and my blood levels are withing the necessary range for keeping my blood thinned.

I waited all day to hear back from my doctors office on Friday and when I finally got the "okay" I rushed to pull my things together to take a road trip down to Palm Springs for the weekend. I was getting so stir crazy staying at home in San Francisco and the stairs were 'driving me mad'! It had been a challenge to get Rudy out of the house on a regular basis to have him pee and to keep him comfortable and not having to clean up a piddle puddle in the house.

So I picked up my friend Brett after he got off work and off we went with Rudy in tow to drive down to Palm Spring where the weather has been in the low 90's. Sorry rain soaked and matted feathered friends. But I send lots of sunny, warm, and thoughts to keep you dry.

I'll be home on Tuesday in time to cast my vote for Obama and the many other propositions and measures that will bring about a much need boost in morale and positive change and human stability that we all deserve to continue to evolve into a world of LOVE and inclusiveness and not hate and separation!

A Special thanks for Angie Placado for he help in setting me up for the weekend drive, Brett for taking the time to drive me and Rudy down, and to John for having this special place down in Palm Springs available for the get away for "pick me ups"! And as always to all of you who call, send me food (Don and Jorge!), and those who send me emails and text messages of love, support, encouragement, and concern! You fill me up!

Love and Light, Jesse

Happy Halloween!

Hello everyone,

Well it's all Hallows' eve and it's raining and gloomy here in SF. Elections are upon us and love is needed to heal the world. Fortunately for me I am constantly surrounded by love, light and positive healing energy from all of my family and friends. And the healing is going great but there are a few glitches.

I went to see my cardiologist on Monday as a follow up to my open heart surgery and as a post op from my ankle surgery. My heart is fine. My ankle is healing rather miraculously fast and I feel great! But, she put a little scare in my when she said that my coumadin levels were not in the range that they need to be for the safe working of my new mechanical valve.

Coumadin is a medication that I have to take to thin my blood. My blood has to be within a certain level to keep the blood flowing freely and smoothly through the new valve. If the blood isn't thin enough there is a risk of getting a clot or of too much pressure pushing against the platstic parts of the valve and could cause the valve to break and, well it would be the end of Jesse and we know him.

My Cardiologist said that I should not have been released from the hospital without my blood levels in the acceptable range. But I was and that the normal protocol is Hospitalization for at least 2 days until the levels are normalized for the valve function.

I don't want to go back into the hospital and I told her so and wanted to know what my options were. She said that uping the dosages of my medication should do the trick along with twice daily under the skin shots. And we'll check the levels again Friday (Tomorrow) and if they are in renge great but if not I will have to be admitted into the hospital to have IV administered medication for 2 days or however long it takes to get my blood thinned.

I'll do whatever my doctors need me to do but I am so tired of being in the hospital and I am so looking forward to getting back to my massage work as well as getting back into the gym and, well just being able to take care of my self!

Again it's been such a challege to get through this ankle operation but adding another level of obstacles of my new heart parts is doubly so. But it's been made much more managible with the help of my loving friends and family.

I am looking forward to getting back on my feet and getting onward through the Holidays and bringing in a new and amazing new year full of positive creations of love, light, and happiness with new and old friends and family.

There are so many friends that have projects brewing all around me which I know will be so successful, and that are being manifested in such a way that helps to nurture and embrace all who come into contact with them with postiveness and light and appreciation for their creations.

One such friend is Tony Cero who has a business called Cake creations in San Jose click on this link to see him in a televised segment with Jan Whal on KRON channel 4. Tony has over the years blessed me and my friends and family with delicious baked hugs that warm the soul.

http://www.kron.com/global/Category.asp?C=144663 "My Big Fat Fabulous Wedding" part 5

Another great amazing soul is my friend Gigi. I work with he occassionally with Greg Angelo's Velocity Circus. She's a face and body paint artist. She won 1st prize last year at the international face and body painting competition in Amsterdam. Here is her website...

http://www.supergigi.net/

Gigi is always a breath of fresh air and always lifts my spirits with her loving energy. She is an exraordiary woman and I hope that all of you can meet her if you haven't already.

There are many many more friends to acknowledge and honor here and I will continue to update you all on all of life's wonderful opportunities that bring us all closer together.

Love and Light, Jesse

October 18th, 2008

Hi All,

Well it's been a week and I'm still alive only not kicking just yet.

As fate would have it John and I had planned a trip to Italy this same week of my recovery from surgery. I had the option of having the surgery at the end of October but my ankle had started to really hurt more and more throughout the summer and I just couldn't wait any longer and something had to be sacrificed and it was Italy (for now).

John offered me him canceling the trip. I encouraged him to go. I knew that I would be cared for in his absence so I'm really glad that he took the time to go on this once in a lifetime trip with his dear friends from LA. We've been in contact every day and he's having a nice time. I'm glad that he's able to do this and not have to worry about me. It means a lot to me for him to do this!

I've had lots of great friends taking great care of me. And as I write this my sister Punkin is here taking very good care of me and Rudy. We're finally playing catch up after 7 month, which is when she was here during my open heart surgery. This is a photo of the healing proof by way of a minute scar from stem to sturnmum... ;-)

I have a friend here in San Fransico, Nick Aitken, who is cutting my hair and who is also a very talented photographer shooting fashion photos for local modeling agencies and offed to shoot me as a testement of the healing properties blessed upon me with the help of all the love that I recieve from you, my friends and family.

I know I'll be back at the top of my health and physical fitness in no time and I'll be able to keep in better step with my healthy lifestyle. I hope that I do ispire you but I want you to know that I have to give credit for all that I am and all that I can be, to an unseen power that is available to all of us. God has surely blessed me and I mirror all of that back to you!

I've got 3 more weeks on crutches so it's quite a challenge to stay put but I've got a lot of "Nurse Ratchet's" on hand. Now if I could only get any of them to dress in a cute Nurse maid outfit! Kent?..;-)

Angie Placado has been great. She brought me coffee each morning in the hospital alond with killer bran muffins that could double as weapons in a sling shot. She also brought lots of laughter and always brightens my day. I have to add that she even managed to get me a burrito even if it was 6 days after my request. We had a great laugh over that. Incidentally all the while she's been putting in crazy hours in her auto repair shop and training for her marathon which takes place tomorrow. Gook luck sunshine!

Kathy Clayton is another friend that I have to let every know has always been there for me in my health perils. She brought me a life saving hommade turkey and avocado sandwich and delicious soup. As we all know Hospital food sucks the big one. I didn't have a sliver of hospital food. It was repuslive actually. So Kathy, thank you thank you thank you!

Joe Pacetti has been a gem, How appropos since he's a Jeweler by trade. He brought over loads of goodies from his friends former bakery, Dianda's. Joe prepared a homemade meal one night of Meat loaf, Baked beans, mashed potatoes and biscuts. Then a homemade starwberry shortcake. It was delicious and was enjoyed by my dear friends Steven and Graham along with a friend of Joe. Thank you Joe once again for your care and big heart!

I also want to thank Brian Kohut for the delicious homemade chocolate Chip cookies. Yum yum yum. He brought them over with Jonathan for a quick visit the evening Joe cooked that delicious meal.

I have had plenty of visitor and company and many more to come so thanks for all you offers to help and companionship. I'm on the mends!

XOXO and Love and Light, Jesse

Modeling `Pics by Nick Aitken

Back Home

Hi Everyone,

I'm back home and will update the blog in another day or so as I can't be up and about just yet so I'll get a new photo so you can see that I'm okay.

Please feel free to drop me a line by email anytime!

XOXO, Jesse

Jesse doing well

Just came back from visiting Jesse in the hospital. All is well, though they have decided to keep him just one more night. Ugh! Everyone seems to think this one went well, so we are crossing our fingers that this is it. His pain is at manageable levels and he is in very good spirits. Only problem seems to be the hospital food, but we are bringing in his daily meals (and cookies) so he's a happy camper. Thanks for reading.

Hearts Beating that's a great sign

So here's the scoop as I have it now.

I go in tomorrow at 1PM and go into surgery around 2PM. It shoule be a 2 1/2 hour procedure. "Revision of Sub-talor fussion with bone graff taken from my ankkle and from my hip. 1 maybe 2 nights in the hospital for pain management and then to make sure that the coumadin levels are where they need to be before they will let me go home.

So this should all do the trick!

No need to worry. I'll be back on my own two feet in 4 weeks after surgery. The first week is no getting up and down unless neccessary to do business (Tinkle and such). other than that flat on my back.

If you want to find out how I'm doing check the blog first then give john a call and maybe I can have someone else to post my blog since David Aguilar has to be out of town, I'll have John do it first and then my sister Punkin over the weekend.

If any of you would love to help. Soups are always easy and tasty and store easily.

Sandwiches are great as long as they're not pigs feet sandwiches...yuk.

Cookies always brighten my smile and Potted plants always have room to grow...

Otherwise I would love to see any of you if you have time to pop over throught the day (calling first is helpful) so I can at least pull my jammies on,... :-)

Thanks for all you prayers and love. My heart is whats allowing me to have the power and strength to go forward with this surgey and I feel it will finally be a success!

Love and Light to you all!


Jesse